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I forgot the my past for a while.

I didn't have anything, that is a proof which certificates I will be able to do my new plan to study abroad so well. I learned English in the class of the lowest level, also I spent a lot of time than anyone to improve my ability. So, I'm here now.

However, I'm suffering for my present. Although I'm struggling to study every class, I'll get a degree less than 4.0 in only one class, writing class. Surely, as I expect, my GPA would be 3.9 or more. But that is no value for me. If it is not 4.0, it is not concerned with me. Because, I always keep it in my mind if I don't get a 4.0 grade in any class, I must come back my country. So, I was suffering.

In addition, I'm suffering for her. I've had a doubt, why she left me. I've had no idea about the reason. Just I was informed that she left me by a text. Recently, I found she got a new sweetheart. I did never understand her. At least, she should've explained me why she dumped me like old shoes. So, I seemed like I couldn't endure my sorrow.

I forget the another memory about my past.

I was always struggling to do anything. Though I sometimes reproach my destiny, that is my strength that I must do it my best for whatever I want. I've been a challenger in my life. And I'll be a challenger at any time. I won't be a champion in my life. I don't have free time to blame my past. I must get up in any hard time unless I lose my consciousness.

That is my sense of duty that God give to me for my life.